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Specific Gravity

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A young father comes home to find that his wife and newborn have vanished. In the storybook version of his world, everything is perfect. When it isn't, he makes his problem anyone else's.

No Son of Mine

A mother and her teen son's lives go topsy turvy when she finds he's dressing as a girl for a role in summer stock. Her interference sets the stage for a gender bending romp navigating sexual orientation, relationships -- and each other. They both have a lot of growing up to do.

Beautiful Ornery Dangerous

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Lewis “Luke” Cook, a motherless young mechanic who rarely considers consequences, loses his job while on parole. At a local diner, he meets up with Jordan Kytte, a twenty-something woman who rarely tells the truth. He’s itching to leave town, and she has a vintage car and could use a mechanic - they click instantly. Inside of two hundred mile their road trip hits a speed bump when a mix-up at a liquor store turns deadly. The rest is beautiful, ornery and dangerous.



The Last Paradise

by Ling Yaozhong

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"They just walk around like that every day?"

"That's right."

"So this is what polygamy's about."

"That's right."

"But invariably there comes a day, I mean, when a man can't go on. What then?"

"The question is very simple. If you were a young woman, I'd answer more subtly, but as we're an older gentleman and an older lady, I'll say that when a man's body no longer exudes the passion, he calls a halt."

The woman's face reddened a little.

The gentleman was fifty-five, the lady forty-nine. They wore light clothing and reclined on wicker chairs alongside a river, their eyes drawn to the people on the opposite bank.

The river was the Pala, a tributary of the Lancang. It was wild without a trace of tenderness, one murky wave giving way to another. This ferment had its beauty, though. On the opposite bank the polygamous men of the Suomo tribe followed along the beach briskly. The Suomo men's torsos were bare, and a few had only a white loincloth around them. They went about their own business and paid no attention to each other, singing a few notes in a masculine voice.

"I understand now. This is communal marriage, a last vestige of matriarchal society."

"That's right. History texts say as much."

"Well, I'm not altogether clear on it. Have they no jealousy? I mean between man and woman."

"It seems not, at least from what I've heard. To be a Suorno man is quite satisfying, I think. He has neither the time for nor the need of jealousy. He never knows who his father is, which is a terrific benefit for a child. Take the case of a severe father. Quite possibly the child would over a lifetime receive not a little castigation - a circumstance I have felt keenly myself. The last time I took a beating from my father, I was thirty. He said he hit me to love me more thoroughly. He had seen that you and I were involved and that there was an immediate danger that we would share a bed. The old fellow alternately wept and instructed me: 'She is a dancer, a harlot as shallow as she is heartless, my son, who will bring you a lifetime of tears."

The lady couldn't help laughing. "Which unfortunately for you was the truth."

"Let me finish about the jealousy. The birthplace of the Suomo man is his mother's home. All his life he will work to support it. At night, work over, he must leave - he must not pass the night there. This means that he must go to a woman; otherwise he will have no place to put up for the night."

"Surely that is where the problem might arise, at least if there were already a man there. Isn't that the stuff of jealousy? There would be room for profound secret competition."

"There you are wrong again. If there is already a man there, the last to arrive must immediately leave and continue along until he finds somewhere else. I've yet to hear of two men coming to blows over it."

"So much for the complexities of jealousy, but when he is old and must call a halt" - the lady's face reddened again - "who cares for him then?"

"Simple. He returns to his mother's. Of course, younger ones wait upon and take care of those in their declining years. Only at this time can the Suomo man return and live at his mother's home, until at last he seeks out, well, death. Is there anything else you want to know about their movements?" His eyes had already withdrawn from the flesh on the opposite bank. He mused on something else.

The lady was remorsefully apologetic. "I've made you uncomfortable. I am terribly sorry."

The golden rays of the setting sun gouged and flayed the fishtails the women were chopping off and cast female silhouettes on the water. The river reeled a little. The setting sun ever more fawningly licked at the trees on the distant mountain peak. The tropical cicada, unlike its northern relative, twittered perfunctorily and listlessly. A. boat, not risking the waves midstream, hugged the bank, stealthily rowing on, looking from a distance like a drifting, irresolute olive. Above their heads on the gourd trellis ash-coloured monkeys - now solemn, now teasing, now grabbing ears and now scratching cheeks - emulated humour. A boar imperatively climbed onto a sow to do his business, but the sow had no such inclination and immediately threw him to the ground, and not in the least flustered scorned him with a switch of her tail. A huge mango smashed to the ground, and fermented juice seeped through the broken peel. And an over-heated brown dog vigorously rubbed its fur against a tree, obviously wishing to be· done with this sweltering weather.

"The strange thing is that since you arrived yesterday, I haven't felt the least pain."

"Good. I've said before you would slowly get better." The lady spoke warmly.

The gentleman gave a wry laugh. "Myself, I'm quite sure that this is the last hurrah. In any case, I shall have Zhang the Carpenter to haul that Nanmu log down in the nextfew days. I told him where it was wedged in a crevice of the mountain crater. It's more than enough for a coffin, and his are renowned along the Pala."

"What nonsense you do talk!" said the lady compassionately.

"You'll soon recoup your health, just you see."

The gentleman laughed again, quite cheerlessly.

"I begin to doubt your sincerity again. Surely you haven't come all the way from Shanghai just to play the anaesthetist, to tell him he'll get better, better and better until he's as robust as a Suomo? You'll give me a physique like a polygamist?"

The lady entreated him with her eyes.

"Let me tell you, that's not friendship. I'll give you two examples of friendship. You're familiar with one of them: Dr. Lu of Kunming Hospital, who also came out here from Shanghai. We've been friends now for only three years. He checked the diagnosis I brought from Beijing and then gave me two bottles of Maotai and said eat what you like, whatever you please. I asked him how long I had. He looked down and said not very long, enough to put the funeral arrangements in order. I suddenly felt quite ashamed of having asked him, when I already had the diagnosis from Beijing. I am a coward. And then there's Zhang the Carpenter. He gave me a pot of black lacquer, to use on the coffin, you understand. He would seem to rate as a friend too."

Tears formed in her eyes, but the lady remained silent.

He suddenly became excited. "I adore to see you like this. You were always so lovely when you were sincere." He exerted himself to stand, and she rushed to support him.

"I think we ought to prepare for dinner," he said.

The servant provided for him by the tropical research station carried out a dining table, spread out a table-cloth and laid out a few simple dishes. The servant was an exceptionally gentle and ripely pretty girl of twenty, whose best feature was her mouth.

The servant smiled at them and then went off.

He watched her until she disappeared into the shadows of a banana grove.

"Everyday she attends to my meals and cleaning. She is immaculate, and I must say it is not unpleasing to have a young girl bustling around."

She had to laugh at him.

She served him a little coriander and noticed a moment of excitement in him that she felt would not have been there five years before. He went into the hut, brought out a bottle of wine and poured her a glass, then went back inside and returned with two more, white this time.

"I think you'd do best not to drink," said the lady.

"I rather think you'd do best to join me, given that days like this are numbered."

"Cheers!" She raised her glass and drained it first.

He tapped his with a fingernail and stared fixedly at her.

"Five years on the border have made me wonder idly at times whether I should have divorced you just like that, releasing you to seek the happy life."

"So you released me, did you? You're off target. We each released ourselves, or more accurately, we were a man and a woman tied face to face and bored stiff. I loosened my rope first and then turned to yours. I think in fact you relied on me to do so, didn't you?"

He laughed and refilled her glass tossing the empty bottle at the river.

They finished their drinks. "You're thinking again." "That's right."

"Probably scolding me all over again," the lady said. "Ever so faintly. Still, it's passed," he said.

A breeze started up. A fishy smell came off the Pala, and to those breathing it, it seemed as if they held fish scales in their palms. The waves raged devilishly, only to meet the embankment with apparent grace. A bird, lost to the flock and obviously quite happy in its rejection of parental love, flew as the mood took it or perched in the fork of a mango tree to twitter in fine regard for itself.

Night fell. The mountains on three sides threw the couple into shadowy ambiguity, making them feel as though a profound might lay within the shadow. It was calm except for the sound of water, which touched everything. Slowly across the river appeared two droplets of dim green flame, following steadily along the bank with blood-sweet, steadfast joy, always turned across the river, stirring languidly to and fro. Then they stopped and for a long while stared out from one place.

"What's that, the men on their rounds again?"

"No." He was perspiring heavily and mopped himself. "A leopard."

She cried out in alarm and inched the wicker chair backwards with her hips.

He closed his eyes. "It's related to the Bengal leopard and as large as the South China tiger. The local people call it a Bengali."

"Might it come across? I've - heard leopards can swim." "Who knows? But I shouldn't think it will just yet awhile." "It might, though. It frightens me."

He opened his eyes, chuckled and closed them again.

"Me too. But I don't care any more. You know, it has crouched there every day for a month. It's a quiet fellow, quieter than a tiger. It hasn't growled. It began showing up about a week after I came back from Beijing terminally ill, and every night since it has come without fail."

Her pupils dilated with fear, and he saw that she didn't dare look directly at the distant flames.

"He thinks to befriend me, that's all." The gentleman turned a jocular eye to the lights on the opposite bank.

It began to feel more like night-time.

"Say something about your success. You know all the papers carried the news that your research had won a national award."

He mocked her, with a mischievous smile, not wanting to answer her question.

"You really should have been a choreographer, the way you match moods."

He had felt tremendous joy at being released from marital bondage.

He wouldn't have to take her or her female conventions again. A desire to brave danger had then heartened him to venture off away from the unclean city of Shanghai, for preference to somewhere sparsely populated and primitive, to taste another side of life. At fifty he had still felt young.

Another pressing reason had been that for a long period his surroundings had made him feel neither alive nor dead. He had been a research fellow, working all day long for crabbed professors pushing eighty, pedantic old fellows nibbling their lives away through their subjects, and he couldn't bear what he felt was a rape of his will and talents. Why were his own projects never given any prominence? When the Southwest Tropical Research Unit had advertised for skilled persons to work down on the border, he had applied immediately. "I'm free!" he had yelled.

High latitude variety of rubber tree. Cold current. Widespread death from frost. Urgent need of research into new varieties.

The wilds, the utter wilds. Swamp gas. Noxious vapours that overtook a man. He had known a kind of aggressive, giant leech the diameter of a fountain pen, with his own eyes seen a woman out collecting firewood die, eaten away by one that had entered her vagina, fled weeping with her on his back. No river without a lurking pangolin; no virgin forest with a virgin's gentle softness. Rugged mountains bursting ever and again into a tumult of curses and so ever aquake: lascivious waters graceful and sweet but full of rocks that bit the feet. He had taken two other men into the primeval forest to set up a nursery. The experiment had commenced. Hybridization had begun - from Malaysia, Taiwan, Singapore, Indonesia and Vietnam, even the Amazon. He had become the leading hybridization and cross-breeding expert.

"That's very moving. I didn't think you'd done anything so moving."

The lady eyed the river, speaking softly. "You succeeded admirably in your work." She gave him a smile pregnant with an amused tenderness from their marriage, openly sentimental and melancholy, which he perceived and accepted with tacit luxury, putting on a pleased expression and winking at her.

"That must be Zhang the Carpenter." He turned around in his wicker chair and looked at the shadowy mountain forest. "I caught the scent of the Nanmu wood."

A stout black ox hitched to a cart carrying a Nanmu log halted at Zhang the Carpenter's call. He was a gloomy, middle-aged man of concealed vigour.

"Have a drink, Master Zhang." The gentleman handed him a glass. "I will trouble you to start tonight. Your health."

Zhang nodded and took a drink, saving a few drops to sprinkle on the ox's head and then on the chill Nanmu, three metres long and thick as an oil drum, which he carefully spanned out before looking the gentleman up and down. With steadfast composure the latter poured him another glass. She half closed her eyes, gripped with nausea. Zhang took the ox aside into the nearby woods and there built a campfire, where the sound of his hatchet scraping off bark gave way after a while to that of chiselling and hammering, deep, ringing and intensely beautiful. The water of the Pala was outdone. Comparison would have been forced.

"A busy night, to be sure," the gentleman noted and drank another glass of wine.

He sensed that things were closing in now, were less vague than they had been. The wine was good wine and wouldn't produce hallucinations, of that he was confident.

Years before he and she had been so young and carefree. Twenty-five years earlier he had just turned thirty and she had been just twenty-four. Even with nothing to eat or drink, they would still have had so much energy to burn. She danced beautifully, a swan mesmerizing the males. All the world's power to bewitch men might have been gathered on stage in those slender feet. Every time she performed, all his friends had gone to watch and cheer. Without the least inhibition they had fawned on her and presented her with flowers and gaily decorated bouquets. Her dance troupe leader had said how well his star was looked after by all the young men in the scientific research unit. The gentleman had taken part in none of the charades, for he had looked down on the largesse of his piteous companions, feeling them a group of unrefined simpletons. He had first associated with others of the troupe and learned about a tiny blemish in her perfection. A slight stagger in her grand jete, a habitual mistake for which there was no hope of redress. Good heavens, he had succeeded. He, a layman, would never have discovered the secret if her pals had not betrayed her by pointing it out to him. He had submitted a short essay to an art publication, treating that stagger with professional sophistication and immediately afterward had looked her up with genuine adoration, showering her with pure passion and esteem. The greater the contact, the greater the passion, until at last she had become pregnant. She had given premature birth to a male child, which had died. Since then the gentleman had always suspected that his blood was diseased, destined not to engender anything whatsoever.

All things considered, there had been this son who had died early.

Had he lived, he would surely now have risen above the crowd, achieved more than I.

In which case I'd now be having to prepare a will for him.

"You've been sleeping." The lady went over to his chair. "It seems so."

"The leopard has left. It's gone."

"Every day at this time it goes away awhile. I'm certain it'll be back before long."

"That carpenter's racket is most disagreeable, quite inauspicious. Can't you tell him to stop?"

"He hammers and chisels pervasively, like the true craftsman he is. I enjoy it."

Zhang the Carpenter, sweating heavily, came up for some wine. He drank dismally, his whiskers sharing the drink. "There's a miasma drifting in from the mountain slope. Will you be retreating?" Zhang the Carpenter felt as though their souls were leaving just then, for neither paid him any attention. He went back to the fire to carve and polish the coffin.

"What's a miasma?" She asked him.

"Swamp gas." He let out a long sigh. "It oozes out of the woods in the tropics. It bites you, and you contract malaria and develop a high fever. It does smell sweet though."

"Let's withdraw."

"You don't understand. It doesn't matter, really. At night it rises.

It won't get us. Set your mind at ease. I have experience of it."

The night entered that phase when all that the light of day conceals sets up a commotion. Four-footed things sniffed the air, unburdening themselves of the day's stored energy, male and female pairing off to serious discussion. Within the air is the confused vehemence of potency and virility, continually consuming. The forest, mountains, rivers, stars and moon all change places, knowing that they cannot restrain the world at that moment.

"The leopard's returned."

She intoned this to him. She was more relaxed now. The two beady flames were fuller, brighter, matured. A fatally rich, glossy halo emanated from the leopard's eyes.

"I told you it would." He opened his eyes and looked at the opposite bank, silently measuring the distance between himself and the mute flames, then eyeing for a long time the shadowy, empty space between himself and them. Suddenly he was startled to notice that at the same moment her eyes also scanned that void unceasingly.

They looked into each other's eyes and laughed, seeing everything subtly and mysteriously.

A shooting star streaked momentarily.

"It fell into the river, that star." She sat up.

"The world has one more stubborn chunk of stone," he said.

She turned around and went toward him gently. Caressing his shoulders, she gave him a kiss. It was her most affectionate display since arriving.

"Come with me back to the city. There is still perhaps hope for a cure."

He shook his head, sniffing back his tears.

Another shooting star streaked downward to gouge an earthen pit.

Blood splashed on the edge of the nearby woods.

The lady snuggled closer to him.

"It's late. Come in. We'll spend the night together," she prompted. him, but still he shook his head.

In the stillness Zhang the Carpenter made the only noise: the fire had little vitality and was almost dying.

Zhang drank alone and carved and polished the coffin.

The Bengali on the opposite bank emerged at last, showing all its spots. It extended a paw to the water's edge and dipped it in. Then breaking the surface of the dead water, it swam across.

Faster and faster.

Chinese to English translation originally appeared in: Chinese Literature, Beijing, Spring 1989, ISSN 0009‐4617

Translated by John Haymaker

About the Author

Ling Yaozhong was born in 1954. After his graduation from college in 1981, he has been researching on the theory of dancing at the Shanghai Dance Drama Troupe. He began publishing short stories in 1980 and The Last Paradise appeared in Shanghai Literature No. 5, 1987.

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The House The Lot


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The lot, not considered large, loomed high in an east corner of the village.

A ginko grew to the side, lofty and thickset, which was characteristic also of the former ginko that had grown there.

The lot, born of several generations of the Long clan leveling the land, was as before: bordered behind by the Wushao Ridge, it overlooked Longban Village, day and night keeping watch on the bend of rambling, low-rise dwellings. Early on, the majestic, towering ancestral temple had all but disappeared from the lot, which now met the eye overgrown with grass and cluttered of rubble displaying its desolation.

Old Man Long Xing-gui hobbled around the perimeter of the lot looking for a dry place to squat and put a polished brass pipe to his mouth, took a draw, and then exhaled leisurely.

"Dad, you've chosen a good site for building. It's spacious and has access so cars can come and go, and getting water is convenient, too." The son, Long Er-meng, toting a bamboo fingerling hatchery through the gate that morning, had said so.

"I know it!" Long Xing-gui gave his son a quizzical look.

The son was one of the abler fish farmers in the Five Lakes district below the Sanjang River, and this year he had used air-freight to transport fingerlings to Gansu City in the Northwest and Gulin City in the Northwest, making earnings of more than 100,000 yuan. The old man and his son had plans: save 20,000 yuan and build the best of Western style housing in the village. After breakfast Old Man Long traipsed around the raised paths through the village fields, and what with this and that, unwittingly ended up east of the village back at the site -- he knew this place well from childhood days.

Before liberation, when Old Man Long's trousers barely hung on his waist, there had been an ancestral temple on the site rising into the clouds with stacks of upturned eaves. A pair of lions lashing their tongues stood within the bracketed colonnade at the temple gates. Long Xing-gui often cut wild herbs with his companions on the ridge behind the temple. One day when the temple gongs sounded from around front, Long Xing-gui watched Long clan descendants enter the hall, and Long Xing-gui squeezed into the group.

The temple was astonishingly silent inside. Old and young held their breath, and all eyes focused on a thin-framed, erect old man who spoke coldly, "Simpleton Long, do you know wherein you've erred?"

"I know!" followed a voice, and a man kneeled clomp-clump onto the floor before the elder. The old man's eyes were lightly shut, half open, half closed, and he began to speak, "According to tradition, you shall suffer twenty blows." Long Xing-gui was terrified so his legs shook, and he felt within his heart dread to within an inch of life.

After Liberation the lot and temple became an on-site township administrative office. Later on in the Great Leap Forward the temple became a canteen. During the "cultural revolution" the stone lions were disfigured and the temple pocked with large and small holes. Then, one night in secret, the Long clan leveled it and shared among themselves the tiles and rafters, dividing the spoils among each household. Even the gingko to the front of the hall was sawed, stripped of leaves and limbs and fashioned into small planks for all named Long, one to each household.

What's past has transpired. Now, if the lot is spruced up, won't it be a fine site for building?


That Long Xing-gui desired to build on the site of the temple became common gossip. The Long clan of Longban Village suddenly seethed with boiling excitement, and everyone gathered without invitation at the home of Granduncle Long Mu, the senior member in the clan hierarchy.

"Granduncle Mu, you take responsibility for decision making.

Advise him, for he has money and dares to disregard the clan!" The speaker eyed the crowd, and not a few nodded at once, venting nasal hm's in agreement.

"Call upon him to avoid matters disgracing the ancestors!" This speech was bellowed.

Granduncle Mu leaned on his walking stick as he tottered to Long Xing-gui's home. Old Man Long sat on a stool twisting grass rope. He hurriedly stopped his handicraft and invited Granduncle Mu to take a seat, and offering him a cigarette, asked, "Granduncle, what business have you that's so bad you personally must come rather than send someone to inform me?"

With a look of seriousness, Granduncle Mu raised the question, "Do you desire to build to the east of the village on that piece of land?"

Long Xing-gui immediately understood Granduncle Mu's reference, but he blinked and feigned confusion, saying, "Yes. It seems to expend you great worry! "

"On that land has always been the Ancestral Hall."

"Hmm? Ahh! Yet these ten or twenty years, hasn't it been in ruins?"

"In the future, though it is not certain, perhaps the temple will be rebuilt," Granduncle Mu's voice was clear, his eyes fixed viciously on Long Xing-gui.

Long Xing-gui first laughed, slowly drew a mouthful of smoke, and said then, "To erect a temple is archaic feudalism . . . .".

"That piece of land belongs to the clan. No one may occupy it." Granduncle Mu threw down the cigarette he held and stood swiftly, his taut eyes watching his adversary intently.

Long Xing-gui didn't look up. His eyelids lifted not a whit. He reached for a tin of tobacco before him and filled his brass pipe with a pinch, and he clearly, unhurriedly articulated, "The site, the land is the government's -- if the township apportions me that site, there isn't any can or can't about it."

"You, you . . . Granduncle Mu, as if gagged, had no words to counter. In the past, if he spoke in the village, who dared not listen; this Long Xing-gui facing him really had pluck! Isn't it always the case that people are heroic when money establishes might: "All in all, you've earned how much?" Granduncle Mu spoke resentfully as he went toward the door on his unsteady legs. Long Xing-gui said nothing, but laughed dryly and again sat on the stool twisting rope.


Long Xing-gui worked on his home. The township approved his selling of the old lot and occupying the new site. Bricks, tiles, lime, and sand arrived at the site, and bricklayers and carpenters went through the gates, but he encountered a difficulty which was neither great nor small: he was unable to engage unskilled workers to carry brick, fetch tiles, sift lime, or shuffle cement. Long Xing-gui had no in-laws, no uncles, cousins, nor nephews, and though the village indeed had eight or nine out of ten families named Long, none were closely related.

"Long San, the master workers stand at the site with no one to pass along the bricks. Could you help out? I can offer either labor or money in exchange." He anxiously asked for help from the villagers. Long San stared despisingly at him, his lips clamped shut. "I'm busy!"

He quickly went to another family, and seeing a half-grown child , asked, "Long Er, help me pass mortar up to the bricklayers -- everyday three yuan, okay?" Long Er turned his head away: "Dad and Morn won't permit me to go."

Long Xing-gui went to yet another home, and yet another family head watched him from afar, bluntly banging shut the courtyard door.

Long Xing-gui had no other recourse but go to Granduncle Mu's home, "We're still of the same clan -- please help out when there's trouble. " He simply lowered his head and implored.

Granduncle Mu contemptuously turned away and spat out a sentence, "You still have face to call yourself Long?"

A large red cock jumped onto the dining table and tipped over a porcelain bowl. Granduncle Mu repeatedly scolded, "You bastard , no discipline, no etiquette, get away!" A broom struck the cock and the cock fled with a squawk. Granduncle Mu chased the cock through the door, yelling at the top of his lungs and the cock clucking all the while.

That night, Long Xing-gui and his son Da-lin talked about getting workers, and the father worriedly acknowledged, "This lot has always been that of the temple. If we build, I'm afraid we won't have the villagers' good-will. "

The son, youthful in air, had an opinion: "If we don't have their good-will, what is to be feared? Tomorrow let's go to the neighboring Xinchang Village and look for workers -- one man, one day, thirty yuan."

The next day, Xinchang Village scrambled to come. One day, thirty yuan -- who wouldn't take it? Long Xing-gui's new building site was immediately astir. Workers called out, tossed bricks, hauled mortar, mixed lime, and carried water, shuttling hither and thither like a group of busy bees. The master bricklayers whisked their trowels back and forth, quick of eye and deft of hand. Long Da-lin brought along a 50 watt tape deck and slapped in a tape, increasing the hubbub. Old Man Long Xing-gui gave an inadvertent once-over to the helping construction workers -- yet without seeing even one named Long.


The house was beautifully built. The style was of that type new to the peasants -- three stories on one side, two on the other, with a flat pre-fab roof, a white and dark stucco surface, a large brick wall tuck-pointed and inlaid with glossy color strips. The whole structure appeared beautiful, exquisite, towering in comparison to the short, tiled dwellings of the neighboring elevation, even showing the proud airs of a crane among chickens. Following the new building's completion, Long Xing-gui felt no comfort within his heart, but on the contrary, an increase of nervous tension. At night, he lay on his bed with no repose, the long lacquer-black nights spent cudgeling his brains in devisement of a plan to resolve the conflict among the clan.

A plan was at last thought out: on the occasion of the new building's completion, treat the villagers to three movies. In the past a new film would be shown every two months, and when one was shown, the whole village turned out. On the appointed day, the projection table was set up on the site out front of the new building, and Long Xing-gui went to invite each family. Of the village elders, not one had arrived by the time the showing began. Two more movies ran, and still the elders hadn't acquiesced to patronize.

Long Xing-gui entered an even deeper state of depression.

He even began to repent that he, at the outset, had ever selected the site of the Ancestral Hall to build on. At night he began to have nightmares, and reflecting upon them after waking, he would again break out into a cold sweat. After a few days, he didn't dare walk alone at night, as if within the dense, impenetrable thicket of demoniacally black woods and weeds along the ravine's high embankment, lurked the hairy black hand of an abductor.


This one day, as Long Xing-gui sat sunning himself on the balcony of his house, two cars suddenly pulled up and two cadre-types got out. Long Xing-gui hurried out the door to welcome them. A potbellied man among the party came up dashing at Long Xing-gui and enquired, "Are you the head of a fish breeding specialized household?"

"Ahh, yes! Yes!"

The cadre to the side of the portly man was Local Party Secretary Zhao. Secretary Zhao pointed to him in introduction, "Long Xing-gui, Prefectural Party Secretary Ma has come to see you."

Long Xing-gui took it in stride once hearing it was the prefectural party secretary and animatedly clasped both hands around Secretary Ma's extended one. He nodded like a new born chick pecking at rice as he said, "Thank you, Secretary Ma! "

The prefectural party secretary went on to the gate and looked around. Long Xing-gui was overwhelmed at this entire bestowal of favor. He was so delighted he couldn't refrain from offering expensive cigarettes and high-quality brewed tea and carrying in a large platter of bananas and apples. He as well instructed his son to dress a chicken, catch some fish, and lay out a banquet.

"Old Long, this place is really not bad! " Secretary Ma called to a halt Long Xing-gui's housekeeping.

"Thanks to the Party for that! It's expended forty to fifty thousand yuan!" In a critical moment Long Xing-gui was not flustered.

"To build one house you spent forty to fifty thousand yuan these few years, you've earned not a little?"

"The Party's policy is good. I have one-hundred thousand or so."

Secretary Ma, noticing that Long Da-lin shouldered a fish net, quickly interjected, "Old Long, don't bother. Why don't we take a look at your fish ponds." The sound of cars earlier had surprised the men and women, young and old of Longban Village. Some stood at the sides of their courtyard walls asking the neighbor on the other side, "Hey, who has gone to Long Xing-gui's home?" Some went on to Granduncle Mu's home, but not waiting for an answer each soliloquized to himself, "Xing-gui receives the scrutiny of higher ups!" Granduncle Mu said nothing; ever since the cars had arrived at Xing-gui's home he kept watch while pretending to be intent on tidying his wood pile. At this time, those youths who had followed the cars and gone for a look-see now ran back announcing, "The Prefect has come. His name is Secretary Ma." Prefectural Party Secretary Ma? The people felt it curious.

When Long Xing-gui, talking and laughing, took the leaders out toward his fish ponds, pair after pair of flashing eyes gleamed as they d odged below the rims of the courtyard walls or behind wood piles and haystacks.

The vast tract of fish ponds was tidy and cool and fresh. The pools reflected the clear, bright sky. The fry purled and gurgled the water and a slight wind turned playful waves.

Secretary Ma looked on nodding and proposed, "Old Long, teach this fish-raising technique to each household, how about it?"

Long Xing-gui agreed, yet the feeling of being left out in the cold of late by the villagers swelled in the bottom of his heart, and though he opened his mouth to speak, no words came out. Secretary Ma then asked what troubled him. Long Xing-gui thought it over and asserted, "Nothing's troubling, only it's like there's a lack . . . a lack of . . ."

"A lack of vigorous support," the son continued in response.

"Well, that's no problem. I came to have a photo taken with you. When necessary, it'll be sent to the village, township, prefect, and county. I'll be your behind-the-scenes backer and support." Just then the party secretary pulled Long Xing-gui to his side, and the accompanying party of district newsmen snapped two photos.

News of the prefectural party secretary and Long Xing-gui's photo session very quickly spread throughout the village. Not a few that evening gathered again at Granduncle Mu's place, and after puffing up a roomful of cigarette smoke and drinking down a few pots of tea, one among them began, "The area housed the old local government. That means the prefectural party secretary has come from the mandarinate. "

"Tch tch! Anyone from the mandarinate having a photo taken together with Long Xing-gui brings great honor to the Long clan."

"Put in that way, Xing-gui's building on the site of the temple, all said and done, brings an omen of good fortune to the Long clan."

Granduncle Mu said nothing, but held a three-foot long tobacco pipe up to his mouth and reflected to himself about the fact that a hundered years before, the Long clan had produced a scholar, and an official from the mandarinate came personally to report the happy news. In his heart he thought, "You, Xing-gui, although did not pass an imperial exam, still attracted the attentions of the prefectural party secretary. The Long clan also receives honor. "

After a few days, Long Xing-gui pressed the photo taken together with the prefectural party secretary into a delicate frame, and reverently hung it in his home. He also sent a copy to each of the village, district, and local government offices, taking a print to Granduncle Mu's home last. Upon seeing him, Granduncle Mu busily brushed and patted the dust from himself and spoke genially, "Xing-gui has come. Sit, please sit!" Tea and cigarettes were as well offered to him then.

Long Xing-gui showed slight embarrassment as he handed the photo to Granduncle Mu and stuttered somewhat, "The prefectural party secretary came to the village the day before, calling on me to help everybody raise fish and also to have a photo taken."

"Oh!" Granduncle Mu received the photo in his hands, carefully looked it over, and then commented, "Secretary Ma's face is like a moon. It really has the rich fullness of a carved Buddah."

Long Xing-gui saw that Granduncle Mu's attitude was greatly unlike the last time, and then getting control over his emotions, explained, "Granduncle, I, Xing-gui, built a house occupying temple land, yet I did not dishonor the clan. Please, you say a few words in front of those named Long. I still think to be of one heart and one desire together with them raising fry!"

"Well!" Granduncle Mu laid down the photo he'd been holding , thought deeply a few moments, and said then, "All right!

You have honored the Long clan. We, moreover, went too far in not helping you out. This being the case, we shall treat you to a movie to congratulate you!"

The day of the movie, the screen was brought to the empty field out front of Long Xing-gui' s home. And early that evening, Granduncle Mu brought along some of the important elders of the Long clan to call on Long Xing-gui at his magnificent residence to offer congratulations. Well into the night, the lot where the projection table had been set up filled with noise and excitement.

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Original Chinese text appeared in Renmin Wenxue, Issue 6 (1987)

English Translation by: John Haymaker

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A Letter from a Distant Place

by Yan Ning

image of postbox covered by wheat-pasted flyers

Mr. Guo, a young poet of unique poetic form and clever syntax riddled with meaning and rich in contemporary consciousness, was illustrious. Every time he published a poem, the poetry world had to comment, and whether lauded to the heavens or given snorts of contempt, Mr. Guo would be joyous and enter into a gratified state into which the critics' words couldn't trespass. After graduating from the university with a major in Chinese literature, he especially desired to hold a post with the editorial department of a literary magazine and thereby spread the wings of his lofty ambitions, making a free and unfettered flight. But when notice was handed down, Mr. Guo had been assigned to a city paper arts department. This paper had a supplement, "Springtime Flowers," which often published poetry and articles and was quite influential. Mr. Guo always made innumerable submissions, but repeatedly the submissions were rejected, and he would fall to brooding. Recently, he had wanted with impudence to go to the editor of this paper's supplement, intending to mock him. But since romanticizing often leads to compromise, Mr. Guo was forced to go against his will and fulfill the duties of his new post.

Assigned to the director's office, Mr. Guo had a view from a bird cage: this arts department was ostentatious. Its three-room office was furnished with desks, filing cabinets, even desk lamps and electric fans -everything needed and more; but then, he mustn't be encumbered. The office personnel included the Director, Jin Mou, and in charge of short stories, Mr. Wang.

Mr. Wang had a small frame and a follower's face, one might say mediocre and homely. But as to his novelistic talents, although his works were not many, each certainly received good criticism. He was youthful and already happily married. His relationship with Mr. Guo was well established; even at their first meeting it had been like old friends getting together.

Jin Mou, in his fifties, also had a poet's reputation. His poetry, volumes of folk verse, read light on the lips: a concurrence of song lyrics broadening to traditional chants expressing contentment with one's lot. This man managed the submission s to his own liking, clinging obstinately to his own course, already dubbed "Mou's style" and not easily changed. Mr. Guo's own ideas would suffer suppression, though his stubborn pride was ready at all times for confrontation. Jin Mou, however, had a pacific temperament and didn't raise his voice whatever might happen - causing one to be unable to fathom that the atmosphere was charged or that Guo was willing to fight.

Reading manuscripts one day, Mr. Guo came across a collection of poems, "The Barbarian's Rhapsody," and he was so taken by them that his heart quavered. This collection had come from the hand of a youth, yet combined the ancient and modern in one volume, richly profound and powerfully beautiful without losing sincerity. In fact, it compared with the magnificence of the pre-eminent Taiwanese poet, Yu Guang-zhong. To push the new poet's work, Mr. Guo suddenly picked up his pen and wrote an enthusiastic recommendation. He repeatedly talked of this matter with Mr. Wang, who - reserved and not really listening -looked askance at the all-serious Jin Mou and laughed indifferently. This laugh was pregnant with meaning. Mr. Guo harbored considerable anger.

Some days later, Mr. Guo got a letter. Upon opening it, he was greatly surprised. The letter had been written by Jin Mou and ran to a thousand words, a tactful and roundabout rejection of the recommended collection, covering some of the must-notes of modern poetry's arrogance and the danger China's poetics was in, advising caution and thought. Moreover, Jin Mou had drawn up a list of a large number of book titles for Mr. Guo to consult to re-evaluate his thinking. The letter's language was to the utmost placid and genial, just like a close relative's kindness.

Mr. Guo had a youth's irascibility, and as before, jumped ten feet in the air, daring flames. He longed to seek out an argument, but didn't see a trace of Jin Mou. Actually, that man had already retired to the chief editor's office for refuge.

Seeing this furious disposition, Mr. Wang laughed out, "A letter has come from a distant place?"

Mr. Guo stared and said, "Together in the same room, is it worth the trouble to write a letter? Mr. Say A Letter Has Come From A Distant Place has also received this kind of honor?"

Mr. Wang opened a drawer and got out a stack of letters and piled them on top of a table. Without exception, each was equally thick and all were in Jin Mou's handwriting. Noticeably apprehensive, Mr. Wang explained solemnly, "Using a letter to instruct a man is Jin Mou's favorite hobby. If there's a confrontation, he's bound to say, 'At the root of our beliefs lie opinions diametrically opposed. But you may write me a letter.' All of which forces you to be conciliatory and make allowances. This letter, moreover, isn't passed on personally, but one must go to the post office and mail it, causing colleagues to joke, 'A letter has come from a distant place.' Mr. Guo, this is only the beginning. They'll come in the daily mail frequently, in excess of what time allows for."

Mr. Guo noticed the stamp, which had indeed been postmarked in Baimajun, a suburb of the city about ten kilometers from the newspaper office. Each mailing of a letter involved considerable expense and backtracking, but Jin Mou was pleased to take this route, leaving others perplexed despite a hundred reflect ions.

Incensed by this enlightening initiation, Mr. Guo raised his pen and hastily addressed an envelope, then boarded a bus to Baimajun- and though his entire body became saturated with perspiration, by the time he had mailed the letter his pores were unobstructed and he felt refreshed and comfortable.

The next day, Jin Mou arrived for work and first read the incoming mail and manuscripts. Messrs. Guo and Wang kept close watch from the sidelines. When he opened Mr. Guo's letter, there was only the envelope; he could find no letter -- which was not owing to either tiredness or having been at it too long. The two laughed secretly, not daring to make a sound.

But to see Jin Mou carefully regard the handwriting on the envelope, reflect a moment, get out pen and paper and bend over the desk intent and serious, was truly affecting. Mr. Guo's smile suddenly froze-he couldn't help the melancholy that came over him. As the ancients had said: It's easy to move mountains and rivers, but it's hard to change a person's nature. Such as it is, 'A letter has come from a distant place' will endure over the years. What can be done about it? This poetry is unlike a poem.

Mr. Wang laughed. A story and a poem, in the end, are not the same.

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Original Chinese text appeared in Chang’an 2 (1987). Reprinted in Xiaoshuo Xuankan 5 (1987).

Chinese to English translation originally appeared in: Pig Iron: Third World No. 15 (1988), ISBN 0-917530-23-3

Translated by John Haymaker

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